Algebra

Ok. So Algebra has been driving me completely MAD. At one point in class I literally wanted to rip my hair out of my head. BUT........I told myself to breath and remain calm. Getting all excited would only make the situation worse and would cause the wall inside of my mind that is preventing me from learning to grow even bigger. So I called my friend Brian. He is a math genious! We got together at the book store and he really helped me understand a few key points. However....as we were sitting there I caught him looking at me a little bit longer than he should have and with an expression that i've seen many times before. I just knew we needed to have, "the talk". You know? The one where you tell another person, "I think that you're a great person, BUT.....I do not feel any chemistry between us". Basically that is what I told him. I apologized if I lead him on in anyway because believe me, That was not my intention. I'm 34 years old and by now I definetly know what I look for in the oppostie sex. It's not an exact look, or behavior. It's that "Thing" that makes your heart skip a couple of beats when you see them, the "Thing" that makes you feel like when you're with them that's exactly where you want to be. I can go out with as many men as I feel like. But I won't go on a second date if I'm sure that they are not the one for me. I realize that sometimes you have to give somebody a chance. But..........my gutt instincts have never steared me wrong. I have in the past went against my instinct and I regretted it every last time. I learned my lesson.
So now I suppose he won't tutor me anymore. He said that he will, but I suspect that he won't call me again. I think I hurt his feelings. But...........I can't help how I feel and i'm not going to do anything just to please another person. Especially if it goes against what I feel in my heart. I'm certainly not an Angel, but i'd never use someone for personal gain. I try my best to treat others as I would like to be treated.
So since I suspect Brian was only interested in one thing and it's not called "Algebra". I found some new resources online. I came across this awesome Algebra site that takes you through each step. It's written very well and is so easy to understand. I'm hoping that this gives me the insite that I need. I also got some information about the Math Lab on campus. I stopped down there today and got the schedule.
Soooooooo.........Knock and you shall find right???
Well i'm knocking.............